Saturday, November 20, 2010

Saturday Random....

So, I am a total slacker and have not watched this weeks episode of Bones yet...I will before the end of the day!  I was reading a Bones fanfic, when I thought of one of my favorite scenes in the show.  

Not sure how anyone could hate this show after seeing scenes like this with our favorite non-couple!

Enjoy your Saturday!

Monday, November 15, 2010


Okay, I know that I haven't resubmitted my book yet, but I got an idea for a second book.  The first book was about Devyn Williams past and the betrayal by someone close to her.  For the second book, I'm thinking that this will be more about her partner, Miles Jackson.  The opening scene will start with Miles making his way through the city.  What I do like about this chapter is that a lot of this is based on my last trip to Chicago. 

So here is my dilemma: How should the first (and maybe only) victim die?  I was talking to my mom about it earlier and she couldn't believe that I would even ask her this.  "Because, Mom!  I'm going to ask you about it anyway!"  Right now, I know that it's going to be messy and very gross.  Do you know what she recommended? (And I love her for this one!) "Think about the torture scene from 'Law Abiding Citizen'.  That was a real torture scene!"  Yes it was and even now, its one of the hardest scenes I've ever seen to watch.  (Ps. if you have a weak stomach or don't like blood, PLEASE don't watch that scene!) 

Let's just say I get what she's saying, but I can't do that.  Looks like I will be pulling out my encyclopedia on criminals out this week.  Yikes!

In my head, I know how it's going to end and have mapped out most of the characters, except the murderer.  Its that one part that is going to bug me!

Any ideas?

Ps. I have no idea where these crazy ideas come from and I can already see more than a few sleepless nights in my future.

Monday, November 8, 2010


As I was adding "It was as if Miles had anticipated how the journal would end", when an idea hit me.  What if I made it so that Carson Maddox was more or less the fall guy and Miles was the real mastermind behind all of the murders?  Terry and Brian would have just been collateral damage.

A small part of me kinda likes this idea.  It would make for one hell of a twist.

The other part is screaming, "NOOOOOOO!!!"  Devyn needs a stable partner who is really dedicated to his job and is a genuinely good person.  Besides, Miles is too awesome of a character to be a villain.  Don't you think?

Just a thought....

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Feel Good Quote

Found this after I submitted my last blog post.  I feel like we all have our days when we feel that we have hit rock bottom and need to be reminded of awesome we really are.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”~ Marianne Williamson

Have an awesome weekend, my dear readers! 

Friday, November 5, 2010

“FEAR is an acronym in the English language for "False Evidence Appearing Real"”

This week has been kind of dragged despite the fact that it was a four day work week and so is next week.  To calm my nerves this week, I've been getting a lot of writing done.  I was reminded of how much I hated my rogue characters and despite how stressful my main characters, Devyn and Miles, are, I totally love them.  I hate all of the things that I put these two through, but in the end, it is soooo worth it.

It has been almost a year and half since I started this blog and posted that my work had been accepted by a publisher, which I later turned down because I was ready to take that step and I wanted to go in a different direction.  Well, today, I found a publishing company that accepts manuscripts four months out of the year and the next round is in January of next year.  So, I am thinking while I am looking for a new job, I can make the changes that I think needs to be made and can submit my book.  

Am I nervous?  No...I'm terrified.  

A few months ago, I commented on here saying that the idea of submitting my book to another publisher and KT Mac said this: 

"....fear is the indication that you're about to do something worthwhile. It might not turn out the way you hope, but it definitely will make your life more interesting and better for it! Now, face that fear and go for it!"
 Maybe so.  

So I'm thinking that it's time to do what I'm afraid to do and continue to submit my book. 

Mary Manin Morrissey once said “You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.”

I think she said it perfectly!

Monday, November 1, 2010

What Am I Missing?

A little over a year ago, I took this extremely scary step and submitted my book to a publisher, which I also turned down, before rewriting about 75% of my book.  (And I'm pretty sure you're wondering why I would even submit if I wasn't ready.  If you don't already know the answer, then don't ask!)  Since then, I have been adding more to each character so that they seem more realistic.  Like people that you could actually see yourself having coffee or lunch with.  Or someone that  you would want to knock that crap out of if you ever met them in person.  

I noted about a year ago where a couple of my characters came from and how much I really hated them.  Terry is more or less a just jerk; all talk really.  Brian is the one that hurt me the most to write.  He is the one that makes me physically sick because he is so smug and believes that women are on this earth to serve and are less than men.  

I bring this up because I am adding to a scene that will change things a little in my book.  It was in the original version, but has changed quite a bit.  When I was writing this scene, it was already hard because the main character is injured and although I wrote it, I still cringe.  In my head though, there was still something missing.  I just didn't know what it was.  

In my head and on paper, Devyn, my main character, is telling what she saw, but I forgot to tell it so that the reader could feel how she felt, saw and heard at that moment.  How the sweat was rolling down her back and how that sick feeling crept into the pit of her stomach.  I had forgotten to describe the look in the persons eyes looking back at her or how.....

And I need to stop.

I'm in the library right now, and I have to say that I got chills while feeling sick having to put myself in Brian's shoes (yes, I know that I gave away a detail, but it was necessary here!).  It was needed to make sure the reader got the full effect and I have to say it terrifies me to know that there are actually people out there like him!

Yes, I rambled quite a bit tonight, but I remember warning you that I would do this sometimes when I started this blog over a year ago.

Am I going crazy for nothing?  I really hope not.